Surrender of Control

One of the hardest lessons to learn is to surrender. Jesus said we have to loose our lives to gain it. The more we share life together as a session, the more we realize how selfish we really are. No wonder God is with holding from us those things he has prepared in advance for us to do.

Acts 2 reminds me of the disciples having to surrender even the presence of their Lord. They had images and words, but no physical manifestation of the one who had become to cornerstone of their lives. For the first time, they were alone, they were to follow his directions, they were to relinquish their plans, and just wait. The promise will come, just as He said.

How hard is it to wait for something you know is coming and yet it seems so far away. How difficult is it to wait when you know that there are people, things, and places in the way of the one thing you wait for.

How sweet it will be when it comes. How sweet it will be when this faith image becomes a reality. The day I touch, feel, smell, and enjoy the fruit of total surrender.

Come Lord Jesus Come~

learning

alright. i'm not really sure what to write about other than how i am still amazed to even be at the War College. it was one of those divine coincidences. it just so happened that i didn't get hired at the Indiana camp. it just so happened that i got hired at the Metro camp. where i just so happened to hear about and meet people from the War College. and it just so happened that i got accepted, everything worked out, and here i am. God has definitely been teaching me a lot. i was really slacking on my prayer time at home. now i have truly learned to pray without ceasing. it's kind of hard for me to gather all my thoughts together and actually explain what i have learned since i have been here. i will just say that sometimes we think we know so much about God and having a relationship with Him then he puts opportunities in our way that make us really think and realize that we can never fully understand Him and there will always be room for learning. God has already blessed this year so much. and i'm excited about the things that are yet to come.

<>< Amber Ulery